i feel lost. i dont know what to do. i have been thinking about it. but when i reached home, the feeling is gone. when i was outside studying, i cant concentrate. at times. i think i should, asap. but it will take weeks or even months or years. this is crazy. it has been ... close to 7 years? i wonder how do i heck care about it in the past 7 years. maybe because i dont know how to say it out and ... i dontknow? i really dont know. but now, i know. i must do it asap....... hopefully i have the guts to say out. find the right time and everything. yes, i must do it.